It was never easy to be the one that was left behind. But i think what’s harder is still loving the one that leaves you behind after all these years…
Does it ring a bell? i can’t say that all of us who have loved and been left behind wishes to be with the one thats got away…. But i believe that few of a many have this yearning feeling. How do we deal with this?. Damn if i know, been in this dillema for more than a decade and though i have not seen the face that makes my heart ache i still think of him every. single. day. It’s inevitable as breathing for me, though i’ve wish and pray to lord god that somehow to help me forget. I somehow became desperate to obliterate the feelings and the memory. Since it fuck with my head bigtime. Know what’s sad? It never fades and i give up trying to make it go away.
Over the years i have learned to embrace it. For every dream that i see his face, instead of feeling sorry and yelling how unfair the world is i now give thanks. Gratitude for the opportunity to be united with the one i love even for just a minute. Maybe, i have had that great love of mine ( it is cliche yet it so fuckin true) and he was it for me and i lost him. I’ll always be thankful for that moment that i have with him. Borrowed or not, dream and glimpse of a memory i love it. And i am embracing this compelling-pathetic-one sided-love this is me being
brave. This is my way of freeing myself.
After reading Fifty shades series couple of years ago that totally reunite me back with my love for reading. ive never thought i’ll touch another gem of a novel (crossfire series by sylvia day, rosemarie beach series by abbi glines, falling into you and alpha by jassinda wilder to name a few) its like for the longest time i was asleep and there’s this cult of good author thats hidden underground that has yet to be unleashed. And in my opinion i think that the controversial book by E.L. James all the more boost the sales not only her book but all the great authors in this planet.
To this day the number of book boyfriends that i have continously increasing by the week. ( oh i know, im kinda picky) As my ibook and kindle bookshelf increase its number, my irate phone memory is giving me a crap attitude by hanging. But here’s a peak of my little shelf with all its greatness.
Let’s toast to greatness!
Admittedly, i have never read the first book although for quite sometime i am an active mandy twitter follower. retweeting, qoute tweeting and ig sharing some of her tweets that really poke through my insides.
About the book:
Easily, this book chapter by chapter somehow brought me and i think mostly everyone who read it empowerment, hope and restores our beliefs. so for my first blog i dedicate this to you Ms. Mandy Hale you not just let me see what i already know but let me feel what my 33 yr old self keep telling me that is to start doing what you are passionate for and this is my start (hopefully not my last) most especially for enligthening me yet again to put a baby step back in my faith in myself and in GOD. Again, tthank you for the this book and its inspiration.